Keep me safe, O God, for in You I take refuge.
I said to the Lord, “You are my Lord;
apart from You I have no good thing”
. . . Lord, You have assigned me my portion and my cup;
You have made my lot secure.
The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
Surely I have a delightful inheritance.
even at night my heart instructs me.
I have set the Lord always before me.
Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Psalm 16: 1-2, 5-8
I am feeling a little twitchy these days. I have noticed this about myself over the years, that the end of summer brings a low level of anxiety. Some years, I notice it more than others and this year seems to be heightened. Part of it is that after July passes, the colour of the sky begins to change and the sun feels different. I dislike change and August is a reminder that the seasons are about to change. Then before you know it here we are in September. These feelings can rob me of the joys of summer’s last days, and though I know that I should enjoy today’s joys and leave tomorrow to itself, I can’t shake the sadness that simmers below the surface.
The funny thing is, that September is absolutely hands-down, my most favourite time of year! I love the colours, the sky and the clarity of the air that it brings. It is also a fleeting time and I think that I hesitate to embrace it because it doesn’t last long enough. I think I dread the ending even before it begins and oh, what a shame! It poisons today and drains me of the joy that God is giving me now!
A dear friend has shared with me that she is memorizing Psalm 16 and we began to talk about it as we went for a lovely walk. She was talking about truly enjoying the boundary lines God has drawn in her life and the fact that we are secure in Him, not needing to race around and make our lives count. I went home and read the psalm and was again reminded of God’s provision, His goodness and His plans for me. That He is constant, in the midst of changing seasons both in nature and in my life and the lives of those I hold dear.
I wonder how it is, that I was so thankful and assured of my lot and portion when I was a young mom with a home full of precious little people and a heart of gratitude. I knew that I was so blessed and fulfilled and that God had assigned me wonderful boundary lines. Did they suddenly move, now that my kids are grown? Is my life here on earth just to be about passing time till Heaven? In my mind, I know the right answers, but in my heart, well, in my heart I am not sure. That is where verses 7 and 8 point me to the truth.
Even though I am not wanting the season to change, I can trust God. He will hold me secure, I will not be shaken. Those anxious hours in the night become times when I hear Jesus reminding me of His faithfulness and love. He has not forgotten me and though transitions happen, they can’t rob me of today and they can’t shake His Hands on my life or His holding of my heart.
I can’t say that my boundary lines are changed, because He is the one who set them! I can’t worry about seasons changing, because He set the world in motion and the cycle of life is beautiful, with each day to be enjoyed and a new day to be embraced. I love September so much, and it was wrong to have felt sad in August that it was coming and would go by too fast! Even as I write this, it sounds silly, just as so many of my fears sound silly when I say them out loud.
I am beginning a new season in my life, one that is more of just me and my husband in a fairly quiet home. I thank God for the past and know, because of His Word, that He has given me many, many good things, He has assigned my lot and my portion and that my boundary lines really have fallen in pleasant places. Praise Him for His goodness, His steadiness (that resists my shakiness!) and His perfect plans for each day, each season, each transition and on and on and on. He has promised to be with me and I will not be shaken.
Lord Jesus, Thank you for today. Thank you for summertime and fall. Help me enjoy each day, right up until You begin the new season! Thank you for the many blessings You provide each and every day. It is true that apart from you I have no good thing. I trust You for tomorrow and for all the tomorrows left for me on this earth. May I follow You with all my heart, praise You and be faithful to journey with those You have brought into my life. Let me proclaim Your goodness and resist the fears of the unknown. Thank you for never letting me go and for reminding me of Your love even in the dark. Amen.
Contributed by Sandy Kricken